God’s Grand Design

Would’t it be beneficial if God could show us a blue print for our lives?  I almost said- wouldn’t it be nice, but I don’t think seeing everything laid out ahead of you, the good and the bad, would be a good thing.

I’m just talking about maybe His (ok, excuse the teacher reference here) lesson plans for our lives for the week.

What would that look like?

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Sunday- Kim goes to church, but is late because of a stiff back and trying to fix lunch before she leaves. She hears a good message, but is distracted by some things going on and doesn’t hear all I had to say.

Monday- car will not start, but she will run into a dear friend and will be blessed by what she has to say.

There is a side of me that thinks it would be nice to have a heads up-to know what’s coming- to know what decisions need to be made and how to make them in a way that is pleasing to Him.

But as a self-proclaimed “fixer”, if I was aware of problems that were coming I would spend all of my time trying to fix them before they ever existed.

Notice in that last sentence I used “I” or “my” 3 times?  That tells me something.  I would be focused on me and how I could handle things and not on letting God handle them and direct my path as I go.

This week I face some decisions. Good ones, but decisions nonetheless. I need to keep my eyes up and on Him and not down  on my decisions. That means not worrying about them, but spending time in prayer over them.  If my eyes are focused on me and my circumstances, there’s a good chance I might miss what God is trying to tell me.

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What a comfort to know that God has already written my lesson plans for this week and has prepared for every possible situation.  I don’t have to try and figure it out.

He knows what’s coming.

He has gone before me to prepare me for whatever lies ahead. What a joy to let Him lead me and to be able to see Him work.

If I had been trying to fix things, I might have missed it.



Now what…

One would think that at age !?#@*, God would have let me in on what He’s got planned for my life. I would be there and be settled comfortably.

God gave me a gift for teaching and a desire to be nothing else when I was young, so I was a teacher for 20+ years.

Then He said, “O.k., now I have something else for you.”

I honestly went kicking and screaming out of my classroom.  It took Him 3 years to get me to listen. But I did.  I walked out of my classroom almost 17 months ago, not knowing what I was going to do.

God and my husband led me to a place where I still work with students, only now they are college level and have some form of a disability.  After 12 months in this position, I finally feel like I have a handle on things in my new place.

So God decides it time to shake things up a bit.

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He has placed an opportunity before me that I’m not sure I’m meant to follow.  This opportunity was dropped in my lap and would clearly be a step of faith.

I still don’t know if this is what God has for me or if this is an “are you willing” test from God.  I am willing to do what ever He leads me to do.  It can just be scary.

Did I mention I do not like change?

What a blessing to know that God already knows how this is going to turn out.  Being able to rest in Him and wait (the hard part) for Him to lead me in the right direction is what keeps me sane.

Well, mostly……

We will get through this week and see what happens.


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Moving forward

As I started this blog yesterday, I was tempted to post all of the things I have put on Facebook over the years I called Musings for Today.

I thought, “I’ve written some pretty profound things.  I should share them.”

God nudged me and spoke to my heart.  He said, “Do you think that is all I am ever going to lead you to write and post?  Those things were good and were from your heart. You DID share them, and while they were good and touched some people’s hearts, don’t live on your past accomplishments. Move forward and see what else I have to say to you.”

I sighed a deep sigh and said, “This is going to be hard, isn’t it?”

God replied, “With My help and prompting, you will continue to learn from Me, share what you learn and touch lives. If it wasn’t hard, you could do this on your own.  You wouldn’t need Me.”

So, here I am. anxiously (in a good way) waiting on God to show me what He wants to teach me so that I can share it with you.

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This should be fun. 🙂




My first attempt..

Please know that this blog was not created to make money.  As I said in my first post, this is a place to encourage others.  I believe this book will encourage others who are dealing with the sudden loss of a loved one or who are having trouble getting over a loss.
This is the link to the first and only book I ever wrote.  I have a feeling God has another one in me.  It’s available on Amazon.
Unexpected Grief by Kimberly Almany Killian
Unexpected Grief
by Kimberly Almany Killian
Link: http://a.co/d/6proQUN

Well, here we go…..

Writing a blog… This is something that I never, in my wildest dreams, thought I would be doing one day.  But here we are.

First of all, thanks for stopping by. Without you, this would just be a place where I was rambling and took up space on the internet.

Writing, This is something that I felt God has given me a talent for and has led me to do.  Now I didn’t say HOW much talent He gave me, just that He gave me some.  It’s up to Him to help me develop it and you get to come along for that ride.

I hope as you read my musings that God will speak to you, bless you, encourage and challenge you.

I’d love to hear just how He does that.

Till next time….