Musings for Today

I have a new favorite song.  My favorite song changes depending on the season of life I am in at the moment.  God usually gives me a song to help me along the way.  This time it is an older song that I am just now discovering.  I’m sure many have recorded it, but this version is by the Collingsworth Family and is on their new album that just released today.

Here is the link from YouTube:

The one line that sticks out to me is “I want mountains to move. You want me to climb.”

I have been so guilty of this time and time again. Asking God to remove something from my life that He has a plan to use.

I tell Him, “Ok God, I know You can do anything. I need You to move this mountain in my way right now cause its too hard and I know You wouldn’t want me to struggle, so You can just go ahead and move it whenever You are ready.”

I’m sure He is taking a deep breath and waiting for me to realize that the mountain is not going anywhere.  He has a plan for it.  He wants me to climb the mountain in my way. He wants me to build my faith by letting me work through some things instead of going around them or having them removed from my life.

There are many times I can look back at mountains I’ve climbed (spiritually speaking- I get out of breath climbing an anthill) and sometimes God allows me to see the reason behind the time of struggle and mountain climbing.

But some times He doesn’t.  Sometimes I get to the top of the mountain and say, “Ok, God, I made it to the top. Now You can tell my why I’m here.”  And He is silent.

Sometimes God speaks loudest in the silence.

I have had to learn that I may not always know the why, but God does.

That’s enough for me.

Would’t it be beneficial if God could show us a blue print for our lives?  I almost said- wouldn’t it be nice, but I don’t think seeing everything laid out ahead of you, the good and the bad, would be a good thing.

I’m just talking about maybe His (ok, excuse the teacher reference here) lesson plans for our lives for the week.

What would that look like?

Sunday- Kim goes to church, but is late because of a stiff back and trying to fix lunch before she leaves. She hears a good message, but is distracted by some things going on and doesn’t hear all I had to say.

Monday- car will not start, but she will run into a dear friend and will be blessed by what she has to say.

There is a side of me that thinks it would be nice to have a heads up-to know what’s coming- to know what decisions need to be made and how to make them in a way that is pleasing to Him.

But as a self-proclaimed “fixer”, if I was aware of problems that were coming I would spend all of my time trying to fix them before they ever existed.

Notice in that last sentence I used “I” or “my” 3 times?  That tells me something.  I would be focused on me and how I could handle things and not on letting God handle them and direct my path as I go.

This week I face some decisions. Good ones, but decisions nonetheless. I need to keep my eyes up and on Him and not down  on my decisions. That means not worrying about them, but spending time in prayer over them.  If my eyes are focused on me and my circumstances, there’s a good chance I might miss what God is trying to tell me.

What a comfort to know that God has already written my lesson plans for this week and has prepared for every possible situation.  I don’t have to try and figure it out.

He knows what’s coming.

He has gone before me to prepare me for whatever lies ahead. What a joy to let Him lead me and to be able to see Him work.

If I had been trying to fix things, I might have missed it.

One would think that at age !?#@*, God would have let me in on what He’s got planned for my life. I would be there and be settled comfortably.

God gave me a gift for teaching and a desire to be nothing else when I was young, so I was a teacher for 20+ years.

Then He said, “O.k., now I have something else for you.”

I honestly went kicking and screaming out of my classroom.  It took Him 3 years to get me to listen. But I did.  I walked out of my classroom almost 17 months ago, not knowing what I was going to do.

God and my husband led me to a place where I still work with students, only now they are college level and have some form of a disability.  After 12 months in this position, I finally feel like I have a handle on things in my new place.

So God decides it time to shake things up a bit.

He has placed an opportunity before me that I’m not sure I’m meant to follow.  This opportunity was dropped in my lap and would clearly be a step of faith.

I still don’t know if this is what God has for me or if this is an “are you willing” test from God.  I am willing to do what ever He leads me to do.  It can just be scary.

Did I mention I do not like change?

What a blessing to know that God already knows how this is going to turn out.  Being able to rest in Him and wait (the hard part) for Him to lead me in the right direction is what keeps me sane.

Well, mostly……

We will get through this week and see what happens.

As I started this blog yesterday, I was tempted to post all of the things I have put on Facebook over the years I called Musings for Today.

I thought, “I’ve written some pretty profound things.  I should share them.”

God nudged me and spoke to my heart.  He said, “Do you think that is all I am ever going to lead you to write and post?  Those things were good and were from your heart. You DID share them, and while they were good and touched some people’s hearts, don’t live on your past accomplishments. Move forward and see what else I have to say to you.”

I sighed a deep sigh and said, “This is going to be hard, isn’t it?”

God replied, “With My help and prompting, you will continue to learn from Me, share what you learn and touch lives. If it wasn’t hard, you could do this on your own.  You wouldn’t need Me.”

So, here I am. anxiously (in a good way) waiting on God to show me what He wants to teach me so that I can share it with you.

This should be fun. 🙂

Writing a blog… This is something that I never, in my wildest dreams, thought I would be doing one day.  But here we are.

First of all, thanks for stopping by. Without you, this would just be a place where I was rambling and took up space on the internet.

Writing, This is something that I felt God has given me a talent for and has led me to do.  Now I didn’t say HOW much talent He gave me, just that He gave me some.  It’s up to Him to help me develop it and you get to come along for that ride.

I hope as you read my musings that God will speak to you, bless you, encourage and challenge you.

I’d love to hear just how He does that.

Till next time….